Chapter 148: Emotional Outburst
, don’t you”Jian Tong was stunned for a moment, though she didn't understand, she immediately nodded."Do you think I'm a good person" the man continued, Jian Tong remained silent. The man chuckled sof..."Are you here to see my jokes" Jian Tong looked up at the man in front of her, a wry smile tugging at her lips. "Mr. Shen, you saw it, you must be very happy, right The worse I am, the happier you are, isn't that right"
Haha, the worse she gets, the more Xia Wei Ming under the ground can rest in peace, right
"Mr. Shen... actually, you don't really need to do so much. The things you did before weren't like you at all. I've been wondering why you would suddenly change your attitude towards me...原來,原來是這樣。"
Shen Xiujian's dark eyes narrowed, his breath hitching. He looked down at the woman huddled in the cupboard with an unbearably heartbroken gaze.
A low voice, suddenly rose: “So that’s how it is, what kind of way is this”
His voice was low, yet each word pierced the woman's ears, causing her to clutch herself tightly. Her heart pounded in her chest... How could he still ask so calmly: What is this like
"Hmph, hmph.... This is how it is General Shen, are you asking me This is how it is" She tilted her head back, gazing up at the man standing before her. His face was as cold and beautiful as jade, and suddenly, he pointed at her harshly: "General Shen, can't you see for yourself"
How is this
Isn't everything under your nose!
I know, in your eyes, I am the murderer of Xia Wei Ming. You hate me, you seek revenge, but I am human! I am a person!
“I will feel pain, I have a heart. I am not a puppet.”
Jian Tong looked up, her eyes, which had long since been numb, finally for the first time so openly and honestly displayed the pain in them in front of Shen Xiu Jin. She said, her tears had already dried up, she said, she couldn't cry anymore, but at this moment, crystal tears overflowed from her eyes, she stared straight at the man in front of her, and whispered:
"If three years ago, you had just let me die, how much better it would have been." With a light blink, tears fell, flowing down her face.
To die, to no longer be kept conscious and pinned down on the operating table, having your kidneys ripped out. You wouldn't understand, the feeling of being fully aware as part of your body is taken from you, that process is more terrifying than death itself because you're fully awake for every second of it!
You wouldn't understand, the sky seen through that tiny iron window in that place... you wouldn't understand what it looked like. You wouldn't understand how agonizing it is to spend over three years, more than a thousand days! You know that disobeying orders means being stripped naked and tied up... At that moment beside the toilet, she wished so much that she could just die... Jian Tong choked back tears, unable to continue. Because, she couldn't say any more!
Tell her how to speak up!
It's not a glorious thing!
How could she possibly bring herself to speak to the one person who put her in this unbearable, excruciating situation!
Then what did she want him to say
Sorry
Or... are you getting what you deserve
"Shen Xiujin," she couldn't hold it in any longer. Those repeated "Mr. Shen" rang hollow, incapable of expressing the complex hatred she felt for the man before her. "Shen Xiujin, how can I not hate you"
Closing her eyes, the tears from those past years welled up again. After so many years of holding them back, the tears flowed like they were free. With her eyes closed, her face was already blurred with tears, she couldn't control that damn tear duct!
Let it flow, let it all flow away. Enough is enough, I can't bear it any longer, "Shen Xiujin! Shen Xiujin!! Shen Xiujin!!!" A rough voice, heart-wrenching and suppressed, calling his name over and over again, there was nothing else. All love and hate, joy and sorrow, longing and fear, did they still need a thousand words of accusation "Shen Xiujin", those three words, were enough to encompass everything! And only these three words could tell the story of Jian Tong's first half of life!
"Shen Xiuqin! Shen Xiuqin!! Shen Xiuqin…" The rain outside the window, the dark roar inside the house… The air was filled with sorrow and pain, resentment and hatred. But just, how much of the love from back then remained
How much more pain will men endure Or how many more heartbreaks will they experienceo succeed anyway."“Huh” Ding Nuan’s heart leaped with joy. Though she understood, she was puzzled: “It hasn't been paired yet”"If it's not going to work, it's just not going to work."Jian Zhen Dong sa...